Game, Match, Insanity

There's always been something I've been bothered by since I was a young child. And it's something that I think most people deal with from time to time. But for me, it seems to be on a level that few people understand. This affliction I speak of, is a mind that races. I know, I know. It's stupid, but sometimes I'll be just sitting there and it hits me. I think of 16 different things, none of which seem to matter. It's not chores or to-do lists in my head. It resembles more of a paranoid and at times a bit of insanity. It got really bad my Senior of high school where my head would have all my thoughts going at the same time at a million miles a hour. It'll make a person feel mad. So, I did the only thing I knew how. I did something until I was too tired to think, or consenstrated so hard on something to calm it down. I played tennis...a lot. More than I ever wanted to in fact. I just wanted to keep playing, otherwise I feel crazy. I'd go right after school, sometimes with a friend others by myself and play tennis for hours. I didn't know why I picked tennis, over say basketball or golf or something, I just did. Now that I am older, it's hard to do anything to get my mind of it. I've tried writing here, watching tv, playing an assortment of video games, cleaning, and re-cleaning what I just cleaned. But still, even when the thoughts don't race as much...I still feel it. It's too cold to play tennis now, maybe I'll look into ping pong. Besides it's easier to jump over the nets.