Confessions From the Owner of the Humpty-Dumpty Heart

In life some times, we put all of our eggs in one basket. Whether that be a spouse or reliving your life through your child's, or as simple as a relationship. But what happens when the bottom of the basket drops out? What if, that person and you just don't have what is "basket-worthy". What if they die? You are just sitting there, empty basket in hand and absolutly terrified of what comes next. See, what I've learned over the last month is that, there is no such thing as a break proof basket (to kill the metaphor entirelly). That is to say, that nothing in this world is certain. I have had my life completely turned around as of late and in turn I have become lost. And I've found that, without a proper view of life and a bit of self-actualiztion, it's a scary prospect. I have put my heart and soul into something that wasn't real. Because in the end, it became a jagged pain instead of a beacon of hope. And when the rug is pulled out from under you, you're mind goes a bit crazy. It seems to lose all sense of what is real and not, you lose all sense of what is good and bad. And when this happens, primal emotions come screaming out. Those being fear and anger. When someone functions on those alone, they lose the real person inside and become someone they hate. So, my question is... how do we come back? How do we find ourselves again and if we can, will it be the same person we left? We will be our own beacon of hope or will we succumb to the anger and hatred. We must fight this urge to become someone else, to latch onto the first thing with promise or to turn inward and close out other. Because, what we needed to do and should have done in the first place is put multiple eggs in that basket. We need to find a strength in others and in ourselves, brush it off and begin anew. We must build it better than before, knowing always that people will let us down. And we will be heartbroken, but this time we will not fear it but instead, expect it.